[It is helpful to smash some of the worry down but he's still a bit distressed by this news. He gives Seifer's hand a squeeze in return, something slightly desperate to keep him here and in this moment. Those grey eyes are a storm as they look over Seifer, trying so hard to see or remember something that was long forgotten but he can't. Try as he might he can't remember what Seifer's saying.]
I'm sorry...I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I forgot this...Seifer I'm so sorry.
[The worry from before mixed with the pain he felt in this moment were getting to him and he pulled Seifer closer, moving in closer as well until he could rest his head against that broad chest. He knew Zell was probably still watching them and that he was maybe worrying him and Seifer but he couldn't help how awful he felt.]
I'm sorry
[He repeated those two words over and over as he buried himself further against Seifer. Try as he might to remember the good times locked in his mind all he could remember the bad. The shared scar, every time he pushed Seifer away, the torture, fighting him, watching him practically die in front of him and doing nothing about it. With all that awful how could Seifer ever let him back into his life. He was horrible, a villain in his friends story. He didn't deserve to have Seifer be this kind to him. He hadn't earned it but try as he might to move his body wouldn't let him.]
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Date: 2022-11-25 02:06 pm (UTC)I'm sorry...I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I forgot this...Seifer I'm so sorry.
[The worry from before mixed with the pain he felt in this moment were getting to him and he pulled Seifer closer, moving in closer as well until he could rest his head against that broad chest. He knew Zell was probably still watching them and that he was maybe worrying him and Seifer but he couldn't help how awful he felt.]
I'm sorry
[He repeated those two words over and over as he buried himself further against Seifer. Try as he might to remember the good times locked in his mind all he could remember the bad. The shared scar, every time he pushed Seifer away, the torture, fighting him, watching him practically die in front of him and doing nothing about it. With all that awful how could Seifer ever let him back into his life. He was horrible, a villain in his friends story. He didn't deserve to have Seifer be this kind to him. He hadn't earned it but try as he might to move his body wouldn't let him.]