"That's what I fucking thought." Seifer hisses. He hates this helpless sort of rage. It's infuriating and frustrating and only serves to make it that much harder to pull his emotions back under control.
"I'm gonna talk to them again in the morning. And... just try to make it make sense." One hand comes up to scrub back through his hair, only making it messier without his usual gel to keep it in place. "Maybe he'll actually listen to you. Fuck knows he stopped listening to me a long ass time ago." Seifer turns himself so he's not looking at Cloud, refusing to make eye contact or acknowledge the deeper hurt even as he speaks.
"Ever since me 'n Zell got here we've been... tryna find things that'll jog his memory. Little things that might make him remember-" me. Unspoken but Cloud knows enough about the situation that he can fill that in easily enough. "What's the point if he's just gonna do it again?"
The idea that he might come back and only remember the horrible things Seifer did under Ultimecia's control without the context of him being under her control is also terrifying. Not that he wouldn't deserve it if Squall did decide he needed to die for his crimes but... Zell has made a point of impressing on him how horrifying it would be from the other side, convinced to murder someone that should have been a friend because the memories that had shaped that friendship are long gone. He trusts that he could turn Zell away from ending up there but Squall?
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Date: 2022-12-12 01:58 am (UTC)"I'm gonna talk to them again in the morning. And... just try to make it make sense." One hand comes up to scrub back through his hair, only making it messier without his usual gel to keep it in place. "Maybe he'll actually listen to you. Fuck knows he stopped listening to me a long ass time ago." Seifer turns himself so he's not looking at Cloud, refusing to make eye contact or acknowledge the deeper hurt even as he speaks.
"Ever since me 'n Zell got here we've been... tryna find things that'll jog his memory. Little things that might make him remember-" me. Unspoken but Cloud knows enough about the situation that he can fill that in easily enough. "What's the point if he's just gonna do it again?"
The idea that he might come back and only remember the horrible things Seifer did under Ultimecia's control without the context of him being under her control is also terrifying. Not that he wouldn't deserve it if Squall did decide he needed to die for his crimes but... Zell has made a point of impressing on him how horrifying it would be from the other side, convinced to murder someone that should have been a friend because the memories that had shaped that friendship are long gone. He trusts that he could turn Zell away from ending up there but Squall?